"Anon" (tjsielsistneb)
01/22/2015 at 21:53 • Filed to: None
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"Anon" (tjsielsistneb)
01/22/2015 at 21:53 • Filed to: None | 9
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Here's a 458 if you don't want to read it.
A couple of hours ago one of my friends from highschool commited suicide. Look if you're ever in a situation where you think suicide is the answer, please don't. There are various hotlines and support groups out there. I suffer from major depression and have been suicidal at points in my life, I do not blame him. When you're in such a bad situation that you're suicidal nothing ever feels like it's going to be alright ever again, it's easier than you can believe to give in. But life gets better, but you can never see it get better if you don't wade through the shit even if it almost destroys you. My life is far from perfect, I wouldn't even call it good. I'm stuck in a souless town, I have few friends, and I'm single. My life is nothing to be envious of and I feel like I have nothing to live for. However I'm healthy, decently fit, and I graduate college in a year and a half. I'm going to travel the world and teach I'm hoping while I travel I'll find a reason for living. So until I'm sure that there's nothing left for me to live for I'll hold out hope that there's somethig around the bend. I'm sorry if this turned into me venting. I pretty much just wanted to say, if anyone else if going though shitty times, just hold on to hope.
jkm7680
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 21:55 |
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I'm very sorry to hear about your friend.
Stay strong, and remember that we're always here for you!
DrJohannVegas
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 21:56 |
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No, man, I'm sorry.
That's all I got.
Conan
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 22:00 |
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That's really rough. I always try to tell people there's more. One of the reasons I teach.
Big Bubba Ray
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 22:08 |
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Man, I'm so sorry to hear that. I had two friends commit suicide within a year when I was in high school. Another friend of mine has been contemplating it for way too long. I know because he has told me multiple times and I do everything to keep his head on straight and tell him that his life is in fact worth living.
Depression fucking sucks.
Jordan and the Slowrunner, Boomer Intensifies
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 22:08 |
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Sorry for your friend. Too many people make a permanent fix to a temporary problem.
$kaycog
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 22:11 |
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So sorry, Alex. I know how you feel. It really sucks.
Nibby
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 22:37 |
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Sorry about your friend.
My freshman year painting teacher would always tell us "Remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."
heliochrome85
> Anon
01/22/2015 at 22:58 |
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You aren't alone brother. I'm here if you need to vent.
orcim
> Anon
01/23/2015 at 02:23 |
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We can't help them that do the suicide thing, except be who we are, trying to help. If they didn't reach out, or tell, or indicate, (or if they did, and you tried) it doesn't matter. That's what was gonna happen. Like a bullet on a battle field, it's not *your* fault, it's just what happens.
I've only been ready to let go of the meat puppet once in my life, but got some help and got over it. (Though I have to admit that I do other things which aren't life-building at times when it gets tough.) I think, if you'll pardon my reading meaning into your post, that travel (as you've stated) is gonna be good for you. Go to places like Bombay (Mumbai) or rural areas. Perceive the spectrum of how people live. It's ...interesting. Getting out of "soulless town" has only got goodness associated with it.
When you leave soulless town, (and maybe before) never forget 'connection' with other people - it helps (like here.) Never forget that a degree in school is a passport to other stuff. Never forget that your internal passion, whatever it is (and travel helps to hone it), is the same type of energy that's driven your ancestors to produce *you* - and that line is 100's of generations old. The power of being here is in you - genetic selection (at least in my mind) doesn't fail, though it can feel like it at times and I've definitely felt it. But that's not the reality.
I'd ask, respectfully, that you continue on, even with the hardships and whatnot. Why? You might be the one I've been waiting for. Seriously.
pip bip - choose Corrour
> Anon
01/23/2015 at 06:31 |
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not good at all!
my condolences.
thebigbossyboss
> Anon
01/23/2015 at 07:21 |
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Sorry to hear. My condolences.
davesaddiction @ opposite-lock.com
> Anon
01/23/2015 at 08:53 |
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Damn. I'm sorry, Alex...
66671 - 200 [METRIC] my dash
> Anon
01/24/2015 at 17:50 |
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Well you've come to the right place. Oppo is always here.